Home baked Philosophy

My mom always had one critique about my ideas. That being they were all home baked and that I never did enough reading.

I admit this is true. I never did read enough about anything. It is always more amusing to listen to my own thoughts than to bother about what someone else writes. I guess that is a bad concept to retain.

However, on my attempts at reading philosophy/religious books, I have always been very unhappy about the read. The most popular books and writings for the most part are written by authors merely agreeing and expounding already well worn facts within society. I often regard this a marketing strategy. Most people who are looking for a way to acertain themselves of their ideas simply find someone who will give them the answer they want. So all these authors do is tie up the well known facts in pretty little words, package them and place them on the bookshelves.

I am not saying these authors are money grubbing fiends out to make a buck from the hapless, silly population. In fact I am very convinced that many writers of such books at least to a degree believe the things they write and wish to spread the word. Therefore, the majority of these books are in effect, useless to learning as all they speak of are well used doctrines and answers.

Perhaps I am being unfair. It takes geniuses (is that the correct word for many genius people?) and individuals with stunning revelations to bring to light greater understanding. Therefore all we have are answers spun round and round to each new generation that has yet to hear of them.

So - I'm bored! In fact the most recent piece of revelation I received was reading the doctrine of Satanism. Which placed the human self/selfishness as its core and ignored the place of all powers that be, God, the Devil or anything else. Of course then the whole thing went into Witchcraft and sacrifices and I completely lost interest as the theorem degenerated into hocus pocus junk, that within may have contained nuggets of scary truths, but generally the kind of ramble the majority of the population for inexplicable reasons love!

Anyway, I digress. Beyond the point of recycled information, I have another really bad problem with these books. That problem stems from the fact that the authors are human!

I consider myself pretty good at dissecting someone's thoughts and experiences if I listen to them and watch them. Reading these books, the author's personal approvals and disapprovals are often extremely apparent. People do not often refuse an ideology for several reasons or in fact the main body of the ideology. People refuse ideologies for a single concept within it that a personal experience has taught them to recoil at. Recognising that it is easy to start to see how the author gets personally involved, will often leave the path of rational argument and use blase argument for all other subjects in the book.

People are all the same. Whether they are atheist, Christian, Muslim, Buddhist, Taoist, agnostic, and so forth(jeez we have a billion religions and definitions today), their mental mechanics work on the same fundamental principles. Different things may aggravate them but the reaction is exactly the same done in the name of whatever belief system they hold to.

So do I have a problem that I have read few books on the matters? No, I don't. I learn as much from talking to and befriending a single individual than many books. Perhaps I am short changing myself and never having taken an official philosophy class I have a large blind spot. Then again, I have heard nothing extraodinary come out of people who do take such classes.

Philosophy, or at least the common sort, is like a complex equation. Put in these parameters and you arrive at this result. Humans, already geared into picking out patterns, quickly learn (mostly subconciously) about how to play this game. And then in most discussions/debates the entire conversation degenerates into a word trap language game, the meaning of the question and answers lost to pride and riddles.

Which is a perfect way to waste many nights of your life if you want to. After many sessions of such convos, I tire of them. We dance around in circles and lose our tempers and I wake up the next morning as stupid as the night before. There are few people whom I have spoken to where we discover something new. And always, these are people who are not seeking their own glory or acting out of spite for a disliked mindset.

So, yes, all my philosophy is home baked. Made from my own observations in my short life span and from other people. I am no scholar. I do not know the big names of modern philosophy nor the big titles that come out. I do not know about the names of theorems or whether or not something I come up with mirrors one closely. I do not even know most of the classifications.

All that I believe due to blind pride, is that I do know something. And maybe there are people out there who would like to listen. I freely admit that I may be wrong. I have been wrong at many conjectures and still hate it as much as the first time I was forced to admit I no longer believe I was correct. I also know I am full of my own hang-ups. Experiences within me that preclude me to certain decisions. Although I have actively searched for such characteristics within myself, I am sure I have not found them all.

So the blind shall lead the blind, and maybe when we all fall down, we can laugh at our own stupidity in relief or in bitterness.